When I think about you, it makes me want to do better for myself and get ahead. I can’t say that about most people; thinking about most people makes me feel drained. But I want to make you proud and happy.
So I know you’re a good thing… I don’t care what anyone else says.
accurate.
Like, we’re all so close and comfortable with eachother and everything. like, I just shaved my legs with my friend gabe in the bathroom like lmfao. and like even thought I’mjust chillen in my room right now, my friends are downstairs with my family just playing video games and shit, like I just love them and everything Idunno.
I always wanted one of those protective guy bestfriends that threatens the guys im with that if they hurt me they’d kill them i mean idk LOL
it times like these where I really miss you, specially when I hear a song that just brings back a lot of good memories idk
lol I dont care how bad nickleback is, photograph will always be one of my favorite songs and it will always be that nostalgic kind of song, it just brings back so many memories, idk. I love it idc what you think , judge me
I miss camping when I was a little girl.
I miss waking up early in the morning and running around and riding bikes with Amanda and Sierra and all the other kids up there, I miss sitting by the fire and playing cross word puzzles with my mom and aunt patty.
I miss going down to the river and finding frogs and fish and I miss quading and I miss the running around in the rain, and I miss the band that used to play every memorial day and every labor day.
I miss my old dog baby and I miss playing fetch with her in the field, I miss staying up till 4 in the morning just sitting in the grass star gazing, and having a huge breakfast with everyone in the morning, and bbqs for dinner, and roasting marshmellows and making huge fires and like, god I just…I miss it so much.
lmfao, even the mud fights and man hunt at night with all the kids at the campground.
god it’s so hard, having everything change. everything kinda sucks now, Idk, we haven’t gone to neversink in so long. I just want to go upstate, I just want to do it all one more time, have everyone there, just like old times..
neversink campgrounds is by far my favorite place in thee entire fucking universe.
I would give anything to spend a summer up there.
:(
as much as I try to like, think about other shit, and focus on other people and everything I still think about you and it sucks.
and now here i am bawling my eyes out. lmfao.
fuck my
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“I felt the unfairness of it, the inarguable injustice of loving someone who might have loved you back but can’t due to de adness.”
okay so like, Idk I dont really have anyone to tell about this, so I’m just gonna blog about it and pretend i’m talking to smeone.
god, so like, I just got back from hanging out with matt, and he’s so fucking cute and adorable. like, idek, when I first saw him we hugged for waht seemed like forever and then like, he kissed me and idk, we kinda didnt’ do anything all day, but, me, him, scott, and doug just kinda chilled all day and like, sat there, but like, Idk, I was just like matt was sitting on this chair and I had my arms around his head kinda, and like, then I tickled him and like, idk he stood up and was trying to tickle me but im not ticklish so he just kissed me and then like we were sittingo n this chair thing and i swear we kissed like 504964654960 times, and just made silly faces at eachother and like licked eachothers faces and shit, but like it was so fucking cute, and hes so fucking cute.
Idk, I haven’t like, felt like this with a guy in like, since like me and lucas first started talking? just like, that feeling like, where it’s cute and new and like, idk, i just know this is gonna turn into something great. and if it doesn’t, well then it doesn’t, but for the time being, this is perfect. he is perfect.
omfg, looking into his eyes though, theyre so nice and like blueish/kkinda grey not really, but like, ugh theyre so pretty and nice and i could stare into them forever. and his smile, like he has the most perfect cute little smile, and like, he has like, not dimples, but theyre almost dimples, yaknow? god, ohmygod. he’s so cute. okay.
i”m sorry i’ll stop. <3 lmfao I could go on forever. but yeah c:
omfg, today was like perfect.
god hes so perfect and cute ohmygod.
There is a difference between love and lust, and it’s a lot harder to notice than what meets the eye. Lust can look a lot like love, it can stay with you for months and months, maybe years. I think most people our age haven’t figured it out yet, which is why everyone’s so constantly heartbroken and easily attached. Love isn’t just getting butterflies from the way someone looks at you, it’s honestly so much more than that. It’s commitment, friendship, loyalty, and work. And no doubt, lust can still cause so much hurt, maybe more than anything you’ve ever experienced. But that doesn’t mean you were meant to be with someone. It makes me so sad to say that maybe that relationship I have been dwelling on for over a year, it may not even be real love. I was in love with his face, his eyes, his lips. But I never felt complete, like something inside me always knew it wouldn’t last, even if I wanted it to forever. Maybe what we had was never real, just moments of pleasure that feel like happiness.
I realize what stops me from gaining feelings for people now. I think all this time I’ve known why, I just never wanted to tell myself the truth. I guess it hurts to know all this pain you go through is for something you can’t even call “real” love. I realize what real love is now, and I guess I’ve never experienced it. I’ve never had a relationship where we can talk about anything we feel, or feel like best friends. I think we all rush into things too soon at this age, before we really get to know the person. We rush in just to hold hands and cuddle and kiss and put a label on things. But I realize now, there’s no rush at all. I’ve got my whole life ahead of me, and anyone that cares to join has my whole life ahead of them as well.
Which is why the next person I call mine will most likely be the person I plan on marrying. But I see no rush in it.
kelsey, youre the most genuine person I’ve ever met via internet, and what you just said is all so true, and I honestly feel the same way. like, people try to rush into everything, no one has any patients, all they want is love, but love cannot be rushed.
it’s nice knowing that someone else out there honestly knows what the fuck is up.
<3
I had a dream about my ex /: we like, idk we got back together, and everything was okay. it made me miss him. but I know that it was just a dream and nothing like that could ever happen, anyways I have someone better, I mean, I guess.
matt why do you have to go to sleep so early, imysm
